I once convinced myself that all my problems would go away if I was White.
I eventually grew out of that mentality.
Then, I convinced myself that all my problems would go away if I was pretty.
But I still thought that only White was pretty.
I eventually grew out of that mentality.
Finally, I convinced myself that all my problems would go away if a man loved me.
But he could only love me if I was pretty.
And I still thought that only White was pretty.
White women,
Do you worry that your partner only likes you because of your Whiteness?
Do you fear that your partner is creating fetishized fantasies of you and your Whiteness in their head?
Do you have a “disease” named after you? Yellow Fever. Jungle Fever.
Does it ever bother you that all your partner’s exes are also White?
Do you ever hear, “I would never date a White girl. I’m not racist. It’s just a preference.”?
What is it like to be the most desirable to men of color?
Do White men feel like they’re settling for you because he’s dating a member of his own race?
Tell me. How does it feel to not have every sexist comment also be racist? Or every racist comment also be sexist?
How does it feel to be marginalized, discriminated against, mistreated, oppressed only on the basis of gender?
Can you see why I would want to be a White woman?
Then I would only have to worry about sexual harassment, catcalls, double standards, etc.
And doesn’t that sound so much easier?
We’re tired. White women, Black women, Yellow women, Brown women.
All of us. We’re tired of this bullshit.
